So Brooklynn has been in the NICU for a week and has made some amazing progress!!! The Nurse Practitioners that are watching over her have mentioned how amazed they are at her progress. She has had a feeding tube in her, IV for an antibiotic, IV for lipids to give her the nutrients that she needed. She had lost an ounce but she is now almost up to 4 lbs 5 oz!!!!
She has been eating so good the last few days. I am so proud of her!! It has been so hard to split my time in seeing her and resting! I believe that I was blessed to not have a hard delivery so I can focus my time on her and trying to rest so that when she comes home I can focus my whole attention to her! The nurses that have watched over her have been amazing and most of them have treated her like they were their own which makes it so much easier to leave her in their hands.
I have had a few emotional breakdowns. I just want to be able to hold my baby girl when I want to hold her and for as long as I want to. I know it will come in time and I just need to be patient but it's so hard some days! Robbie and I have tried so hard having a positive attitude which I think has helped a lot. We are planning on her coming home around her due date and not sooner so then if she does get released sooner then it will be a great celebration!!!
I just have to say that I am SO GRATEFUL for all of you that have expressed love, prayers and help in anyway that you can. I have felt the strength from those prayers. I know I couldn't do this on my own and days I plead to my Heavenly Father to give me the strength to get through this. I have found so many people that I wasn't aware of that either were in the NICU when they were little or had their own children in the NICU and they have been able to give us the strength that we need. I know that in 2 months it will seem like a distant memory but right now it feels like the 23rd will never get here. I just hope that I can be a mother to Brooklynn that she needs me to be. She already has shown me what a fighter she is and what an amazing spirit she has. She isn't going to give up so why should I give up on her? She is my little angel and she has daddy wrapped right around her fingers!!!
I will try to keep you all updated on what's going on and will add pictures soon. I think I have used all my energy to get caught up to this point. Thank you again for all your prayers and encouragement. We really appreciate them.