I feel like I have so much to post about but no time to do it in!!! I tried downloading some pics from my phone to my computer so I could put them on the blog and just getting like 10 pics downloaded took forever and then I wanted to sleep...so I did. So I will continue to work on the pics but on the meantime I will update our last few days....
I went to the hospital on Monday to see Brooklynn with my mom and the nurse told us they would like us to "room-in" (where you stay at the hospital in a room...kinda like a hotel room...and the baby is still hooked up to everything but we can't see the numbers and then we just actually get to act like parents and change her diapers, feed her, wake up when she wakes up etc) and then if we felt comfortable and she passes the car seat test then we would get to take her home.
So we stayed the night and it seemed like she woke up a lot...more than we were used to because we had never had to get up for a child before. So I think we ended up getting like 1 hour of sleep. At 9 am the nurse came in and took Brooklynn to do her car seat test...which she failed within the first 10 minutes of, and so they tried her in another one that was meant for preemies and she passed it. So they brought her into us and said ok she's ready to go home...unhook her and change her and we'll take everything outside. I had thought they would unhook everything and maybe get her cleaned up before we left because she still had the stickers on her face from the oxygen...but they left that to us...oh well...at least we finally got to take our baby girl home!!!!!!!!
The first night she was home was CRAZY!!!! She slept probably no more than 45 minutes the whole night. I think it was a mixture of her trying to get used to a new place, actually being around her parents, nursing every feeding instead of bottle feeding, etc. By the morning I was so exhausted! I don't think I had ever been that tired before in my life. She would eat and I'd lay her down and then she'd just sleep for a minute or so and then wake up and cry. It was so hard for me because I have never been a mom before and I didn't know what to do for her to make her sleep. By 7 am she still wasn't sleeping so I just sat in bed and held her and just cried. I didn't know what to do, I was so frustrated, tired and emotional! I didn't realize that my emotions would be kicked up a notch once she came home but they sure were. I had to text my mom to see what advice she could give me. I sat and talked to Robbie and I just felt like an awful mom because I didn't know what to do.
She's now been with us since Tuesday and we're still trying to figure things out and get frustrated but I just love to be able to kiss her all day long if I want to or if I want to hold her without wires attached to her I can!!! I get to just sit and stare at her continually amazed that I really am a mom...this is what I have been dreaming of for years and it's finally happening! It's not exactly what i thought but it's pretty close. It's amazing to think that I am now responsible for this little child...Robbie and I are the ones that will make decisions that effect her life....so we better make good ones!
I will post pics soon!!!! She is now 5 lbs 6 ozs and growing like a week. I put a newborn outfit on her and it drowned her! But she will fit into it soon I'm sure. She still has thick, reddish brown hair, gorgeous dark blue eyes and is just so freaking darn cute!!!!! I can't wait for you all to meet her!!!
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