Have you ever just had one of those days that you just want to sit at home and really feel sorry for yourself and you hope that others will feel sorry for you too?? That was me today except I had to work so I couldn't really feel sorry for myself until after work....well I could during but couldn't really do anything about it.
I don't feel like I'm the "depressed" type but I do feel like every so often I go into "depression stages" which I'm sure everyone does and this week just seems to be one of them. I don't know why and I don't know when it will end but it sucks. The one good thing about it is I realize who my friends are and who cares about me and want what's best....still doesn't always make it easier.
I know I have a good life, an amazing husband, great in laws, awesome mom, etc but what about the other things that are missing? Sometimes it just seems like everything just kicks you down and you can't get up. I know I'll get up and I know I'll become stronger because of it but right now I just want to lay in bed and cry....it's my day off tomorrow so I just might. Once I was told that crying releases some kind of something in your body that's good for you and I believe her. I love that I can come home to Robbie and cry on his shoulder and he doesn't have to say anything but I know that he cares! He's such an amazing guy and to have to put up with a basket case like me even makes him more awesome.
I know that life has ups and downs but why do they always seem to come together?? I feel like I have a lot of good stuff going on right now and maybe that's the problem is it's happening to other people and there's nothing really "exciting" going on in my own life so maybe I'm just jealous! I don't know. I just know that a big carton of ice cream sounds really good cuddled up with my husband watching a chic flick and just crying.....I promise I will get out of this slump but until then I may be grumpy, emotional, mean, etc.......